I have no idea what I'm doing. At this exact moment, I'm sitting on my couch in my snuggie (be jealous) trying to figure out what I want to go to graduate school for. As a career services professional, this should be an easy task. I talk to students about this kind of stuff all day long, but now that it's time for me to make a decision, I'm stuck.
In life, I have trouble making decisions. I can't make a dinner choice for anything...how on earth am I supposed to plan the rest of my life? Sweet lord, this is difficult and angst inducing (obviously). What better way to deal with the stress of potentially making the wrong decision than to write a blog post?
Procrastination and I are best friends. He's a little snarky and often ends up stabbing me in the back, but I still consider him a close friend of mine.
After a long (lovely!) chat with one of my best friends (a real one, unlike procrastination), I'm beginning to realize just how difficult it is to grow up. I'm a much more grounded person than I used to be, and even though I tend to be on the irresponsible side, I do what needs to be done and go about my business. So why is it so hard to think about the future? Whether it's a relationship, tomorrow's wardrobe choice, or where I'd like to be headed when the semester ends, I tend to panic a little, procrastinate a lot, and then ultimately become disappointed when things don't work out the way I want them to.
Life, love, and happiness shouldn't be this difficult to figure out. My brain is turning to mush as we speak and I'm doing nothing to change that. Again, instead of looking for new grad school opportunities, I'm typing a ridiculous post about my life. You're welcome.
Tomorrow is a new day and my goal is to make it count. I'll continue building relationships, making decisions (ha!), and not being angsty about the fact that I have no idea where I'll be in 5 months. Promise.
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